A look
a glance 
I see you
you see me
your touch
your aroma
your smile
our souls fly free
I give all of me
you give all of you
feeling explode
Love's afterglow
I cry
you cry
no longer alone
joy overflows

We Talk
No Words

We draw close
our eyes dance
you smile
I laugh
we giggle
holding your hand makes my heart race
through the rain we walk
no words exchanged
our lives never again the same
you smile
I laugh
We giggle

jangan pinta aku bicara tentang nasib
kerana maksudnya terikat
pada helai-helai semalam
yang terlerai di tanah hakikat

satu persatu embun menitis
kering dalam telapak tangan
sebelum sempat kau mengukur
yang mana lebih dahaga
mataku..mindaku..lidahku..hatiku

kembara ini adalah misteri yang paling panjang
apakah sampai kita mengerti pelangi itu
tidak di kaki langit dan bukannya juga di puncak bukit

atau kita sengaja cuba membeli takdir.......

detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan

seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata
ku persembahkan kepada mu
yang terindah dalam hidup ku

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepada mu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah pada mu

maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintai mu
dalam dada ku harap hanya
diri mu yang bertahta

detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir pada mu

I shouldn’t have done that,
I should have pretended not to know
like I didn’t see it, like I couldn’t see it
I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place

I should have run away
I should have pretended I wasn’t listening
like I didn’t hear it, like I couldn’t hear it
I shouldn’t have heard your love in the first place

Without a word, you made me know what love is
Without a word, you gave me your love
Made me fill myself with your every breath
Then you ran away

Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next
My lips were surprised
It came without a word

Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?
Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore, and that you’re not here anymore
otherwise, it’ll be just the same like before

Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love abandons me
Wondering what to say next
My lips were surprised

Without a word, tears starts falling down
Without a word, my heart is broken

Without a word, I waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me
I’ve become transparent, I’ve become a fool
and I cry just by looking at the sky

Without a word, separation finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
It tool my heart by surprised
To send you away unexpectedly
It came without a word

Without a word, love appears
Without a word, love vanishes
Like a fever I’ve had, maybe all I have to do is hurt for a while
Because in the end, the only thing that remains are scars

Sometimes I feel 
I can’t keep it together 
Then you hold me close 
And you make it better 
When I’m with you 
I can feel so unbreakable 

Cause it's us against the world 
You and me against them all 
If you listen to these words 
Know that we are standing tall 
I don't ever see the day that 
I won't catch you when you fall 
Cause it's us against the world tonight 

We’re not gonna break 
Cause we both still believe 
We know what we’ve got 
And we’ve got what we need alright 
We’re doing something right...

am sorry for being so emotional

am sorry that i cry for you

am sorry because i can't live without you

am sorry for the tears you shed

am sorry for the damage i made

am sorry i've made you sick

am sorry i hurt you so deep

am sorry for giving you sleepless nights

am sorry for each and every fight

am sorry for your pain and agony

am sorry for the missing harmony

am sorry for my selfish love

am sorry for not caring enough

am sorry for my restlessness

am sorry for the losing grace

am sorry baby, i made you mad

am sorry darling, you are so sad

am sorry for not giving you any happiness

am sorry you did't get what you deserve

am sorry it's my disgrace

am sorry for thinking of you so very much

am sorry of being so obsess with you

am sorry for my every madness mood

am sorry for being so immature

am sorry for being myself

am sorry that i've failed

am sorry and sorry again

am sorry for being insane

BUT BELIEVE ME THAT I LOVE YOU

or should i say sorry for that too............

Aku sedar bila tanpa dirimu
Ku rasakan dunia ini terhenti
Lambat, kaku dan tidak bernyawa

Bagaikan otak ku terhenti berfikir
Apa yang perlu aku lakukan
Tanpa kau disisi

Rinduku bagai membungkam ragaku
membuat aku terhenti untuk menghela sekalipun

Jiwaku sesak…dan kosong…

Mendengar suaramu bagaikan terhenti nafasku
Untuk ku dengar dan masuk terus kejiwaku
Agar tidak diganggu
Agar aku tidak terlepas dari mendengar setiap butir bicaramu

Andai Tuhan mendengar rintihanku
Bertemu mu ingin sekali aku hentikan seluruh maya ini
Agar hanya kau dan aku menikmatinya bersama
Agar masa ini begitu panjang untuk kita berdua sahaja

Adakah kau rasa …terhenti segala-galanya
Bila sudah jatuh cinta

Kalau inilah yang terbaik....ya aku rela dan pasrah

BUKANlah bagaimana aku melupakan..

tapi bagaimana aku MEMAAFKAN..

BUKANlah bagaimana aku mendengarkan..

tapi bagaimana aku MENGERTI..

BUKANlah apa yang aku  lihat..

tapi apa yang aku RASAKAN..

BUKANlah bagaimana aku melepaskan..

tapi bagaimana aku BERTAHAN.

namun........

Lebih berbahaya mencucurkan air mata dalam hati...

dibandingkan menangis tersedu2...

Air mata yang keluar dapat dihapuskan..

sementara air mata yang tersembunyi menguriskan luka yang tidak akan pernah hilang..

Akan tiba saatnya nanti di mana aku harus berhenti mencintai seseorang

BUKAN kerana dia berhenti mencintai aku

MELAINKAN kerana aku menyedari bahawa dia akan lebih bahagia,apabila aku melepaskannya

Kepadamu yang akan menjadi pendampingku kelak..Terima kasih kerana telah memilihku di antara ribuan bidadari di luar sana yang siap untuk kamu pilih.. Padahal kamu begitu tahu, aku hanya wanita biasa, yang sangat jauh dari sempurna.Kerananya ku ingin kamu tahu, aku bukan wanita yang sempurna, aku begitu banyak kekurangan. Maka ketahuilah..

Kepadamu yang akan memilihku kelak.. 

Aku tak sebijak Siti khadijah, kerananya ku ingin kamu tahu, aku akan saja  berbuat salah dan begitu menyedihkan. Maka ku mohon padamu, bijaklah dalam menghadapiku, jangan marah padaku, nasihati aku dengan hikmah, kerana bagiku kamulah pemimpinku, tak akan berani ku membangkang padamu.. 

Duhai kau yang telah memilihku kelak.. Ingatlah, tak selamanya aku akn cantik di matamu, ada kalanya aku akan begitu kusam dan hodoh. Mungkin kerana aku begitu sibuk di dapur, menyiapkan makan untuk kamu dan anak-anak kita nanti –Insya’Allah-. Maka aku akan tampak kotor dan berbau asap. Atau kerana seharian ku harus meguruskan istana kecil kita, agar kamu dan anak kita dapat tinggal dengan nyaman dan damai. Maka mungkin aku tak sempat berdandan untuk menyambutmu sepulang bekerja.. Ataukah kamu akan menemukanku tersengguk-sengguk saat mendengar keluhan dan ceritamu, bukan kerana aku tak suka menjadi tempatmu menumpahkan segala rasamu, tapi karena semalam saat kau tertidur dengan nyenyak, aku tak sedetikpun tertidur karena harus menjaga anak  kecil kita yang sedangsakit, dan ku tau kamu letih mencari rezeki untuk kami maka tak ingin ku mengusik sedikit pun lelapmu.. Jadi jika esok pagi kau mendapatiku begitu letih dan ada lingkaran hitam di mataku, maka tetaplah tersenyum padaku, kerana kau adalah kekuatanku.. 

Padamu yang menjadi nahkoda dalam hidupku kelak.. 

Ketahuilah, aku tak sesabar  Fatimah, ada kalanya kau akan menemukanku begitu marah, menangis , bukan kerana ku membangkang padamu, tapi aku hanya wanita biasa, aku juga perlu tempat untuk menumpahkan beban di hatiku, tempat untuk melepaskan penatku, dan mungkin saat itu aku tak menemukanmu, atau kau begitu sibuk dengan pekerjaanmu, maka bersabarlah, yang ku perlukan hanya pelukan dan belaianmu.. Kerana bagiku kau adalah titisan embun yang mampu memadamkan segala resahku.. 

Ataukah ada kalanya tanganku akan mencubit dan memukul penuh kasih sayang si kecil kerana lelah dan penatku di tambh rengekannya yang tak habis-habisnya. Sungguh bukan kerana ku ingin menyakitinya, tapi kadang aku kehabisan cara untuk menenangkan hatinya. Maka jangan memarahiku kerana telah menyakiti buah hati kita, tapi cukup kau usap kepalaku, dan bisikkan kata sayang di telingaku, kerana dengan itu ku tau kamu selalu menghargai semua yang ku lakukan untuk kalian, dan kamu akan menemukanku menangis menyesali perlakuanku pada anak kita, dan aku akan merasakan ribuan kali rasa sakit dari cubitan yang ku berikan padanya, dan aku akan berjanji tak akan mengulanginya lagi.. 

Padamu yang menjadi imam dalam hidupku kelak.. 

Ketahuilah, aku tak secerdas Aisyah.. Maka jangan pernah bosan mengajariku, membimbingku ke arah-Nya, walau kadang aku begitu bebal dan bodoh, tapi jangan pernah letih mengajariku.. Jangan segan membangunkanku di sepertiga malam untuk bersamamu bermunajat pada Kekasih yang Maha Kasih.. Jangan letih mengingatkanku untuk terus bersamamu mendulang pahala dalam amalan-amalan sunnah.. Bimbing tanganku ke JannahNya, agar kamu dan aku tetap bersatu di dalamnya. 

Padamu yang menjadi kekasih hati dan teman dalam hidupku.. 

Seiring berjalannya waktu, kamu akan menemukan rambutku yang dulu hitam legam dan indah, akan menipis dan memutih. Kulitku yang bersih akan mulai kereput. Tanganku yang halus akan menjadi kasar.. Dan kau tak akan menemukanku sebagai wanita cantik, yang kau khitbah puluhan tahun yang lalu.. Bukan wanita muda yang selalu menyenangkan matamu.. Maka jangan pernah berpaling dariku.. Karena satu yang tak pernah berubah, bahkan sejak dulu akan terus bertambah dan kian bertambah, iaitu rasa cintaku padamu.. 

Ketahuilah.. Tiap harinya, tiap jam, minit dan detiknya, telah aku lewati dengan selalu jatuh cinta padamu..Maka, cintailah aku, dengan apa adanya aku.. Jangan berharap aku menjadi wanita sempurna.. Maafkan aku kerana aku bukan puteri.. Aku hanya wanita biasa.. 

I´ll show you,
What It takes to feed my mind,
You go trough, reading all my signs
It was a lovely day,
When everything was everywhere
And now love came in to season
I didn´t know you
Nice little dreams you push to side
Can we take to until we see those eyes we love to hide
And I´m alone in bed
In someone elses head

And now love came in to season
Take time and make yourself feel good
And you do whatever you want
Cause you can now, in my world
Make it up for losing so much time
Cause you can now, in my world

We want to take a little walk down this room you know
I´m not scared to cause
If we get back we can take it real slow
Another lovely day
When everything was everywhere

I'm gonna make you feel alright
and i'm gonna make you hold on tight

Bukan laut namanya jika airnya tidak berombak. Bukan cinta namanya jika perasaan tidak pernah terluka. Bukan kekasih namanya jika hatinya tidak pernah merindu dan cemburu

ku ingin sekali menyingkap rahsia dirimu,  ingin ku kuak cerita itu tapi aku takut melukai mu, namun aku perlu tahu.....lantas bagaimana.....apa yang harus aku lakukan.....

Kekasih... Aku bertahan dalam benaman lautan Kerinduan...

CINTA.... Salahlah bagi orang yang mengira bahwa cinta itu datang kerana pergaulan yang lama dan rayuan yang terus menerus. Cinta adalah tunas pesona jiwa, dan jika tunas ini tak tercipta dalam sesaat, ia takkan tercipta bertahun-tahun atau bahkan abad.

Uncertain of my own feelings.....

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

Half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you
with half of my heart

I was made to believe i'd never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the woman who can only love herself
Lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came
Showing me a better way and all that my love can bring

Your faith is strong
But I can only fall short for so long
Time will hold, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
But I can't stop loving you
But I can't stop loving you with half of my...
Half of my heart

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak - but I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed - I can't be sure

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing

If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move
If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind

I think you're so mean - I think we should try
I think I could need - this in my life
I think I'm just scared - that I know too much
I can't relate and that's a problem I'm feeling

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold him when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away.....

Am I better off dead
Am I better off  quitter
They say I'm better off now
Then I ever was with him
As they take me to my local down the street
I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget him
But after one too many I know that I'm never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

And my girlfriends are all there trying to calm me down
'Cause I'm shouting your name all over town
I'm swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around

I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words,
And he'll listen this time even though they're slurred,
Dialed his number and confess to him,
I'm still in love with all of him but all I heard was nothing

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know I'm with him face to face, that he'll come to his senses
Every drunk step and path leads me to his door
If he sees how much I'm hurting
He'll take me back for sure

Sometimes love is intoxicating
You're coming down your hands are shaking
When you realise there's no one waiting

aq suke dgn care ko membohongi aq.....aq suke plak dgn rse pedih terluke tu.....

Benar sayang, aku merinduimu, menyayangimu, mengasihimu ...

Tanyalah pada bulan betapa aku setia menantimu ...

Lihatlah pada bintang yang bertaburan dilangit ...

Begitulah kasihku padamu tidak terkira ...

Bagai sungai yang mengalir ..

Bak tebing yang kukuh ...

Begitulah setiaku  ..

Itulah janjiku padamu ...

Selagi masih bernafas...

Selagi itulah aku akan tetap bersamamu...

benarkah apa yg kau ucapkan
atau hanya nak mempermainkan perasaan
usahlah diriku menjadi taruhan asmaramu
kalau benar buktikan kepadaku kesungguhan mu itu...

Bukan niatku membiarkan dirimu terbiar sepi ...

Tetapi aku sendiri hanyut dibuai gelora asmaramu ...

Bukan tiada madah cinta untukmu ...

Tetapi jiwaku masih hilang dalam lautan kasihmu ...

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit here anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

I don't know why

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Hundred days have made me older, since the last time that i saw your face.
Thousands lies have made me colder and i don't think i can look at this the same again
All these miles that seperate, disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face
I've heard this life is overrated but i hope that it gets better as we go
Everything i know and anywhere i go and when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
I am here without you baby but you are still with me in my dreams
I m here without you baby but you are still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and i dream about you all the time

hari ini,  cinta itu sudah berlalu pergi............

I may have a strong personality

but i break down on my knees and pray

for the pain is too weighty to carry

and the heartache was to heavy.

I may have a strong personality

but i fall down and cry mostly

for it cause me tremendous tragedy

and felt me some agony.

I may have a strong personality

but when it comes to love i am weedy

for it bears me ache generally

and the guy i loved was apathy.

I may have s atrong personality

but my life is full of mess and dirty

Just because of once dishonesty

evertything turned to nothing and filthy.

I may have a strong personality

but im forcing myself to be sturdy

that even in the midst of misery

I can face everyday bravely.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to God
Cos I got time while he got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

His best days will be some of my worst
He finally met a girl thats gonna put him 1st
While I'm wide awake he's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos he's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

You got her heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one
You wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good

aku ... akan selalu memujamu, menyayangimu, menyintaimu, mengasihimu, menyanjungimu, merinduimu, menghormati semua yang bermakna dari dirimu ...

mana janji mu dulu untuk mencintai diri ku selama-lamanya. mana janji mu dulu untuk setia bersama ku hingga aku mati...

cinta mu adalah yang terbaik buat ku

Let me hold you For the last time It's the last chance to feel again But you broke me Now I can't feel anything

When I love you It's so untrue I can't even convince myself When I'm speaking It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up I tried to hold but it hurts too much I tried to forgive but it's not enough To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings You can't feel anything That your heart don't want to feel I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts And lies worse I can't like it anymore And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing We are turning into dust Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire When there's nothing left to say It's like chasing the very last train When it's too late

Oh it tears me up I tried to hold but it hurts too much I tried to forgive but it's not enough To make it all okay

aku cuba bertahan tapi amat menyakitkan....aku cuba memaafkan tapi ianya tak mencukupi....

I wish you would see the love in my eyes
and wish you would believe when I say
your happiness means more to me 
than anything else
And I'll keep you happy all night and day

Believe in my love, if ever you do
with you, I'll stay forever
no matter where you may be
In my heart we'll be together

So when you make a choice
do spare a thought for me
remember that you do have me
who loves you so much
And will continue doing so till all eternity

But if you decide to walk away
Don't turn around or you'll see me cry
I don't want you to leave me alone
I don't want you to say goodbye

Thought with you I would like to be forever
feels like walking on the moon counting stars
beyond the world, nothing else matter
thinking about you my love, laughing at myself 
without any words, I am happy

Hopping for good things, looking towards future
flying high in the sky, sailing long in the sea
mad wit your thoughts, I have plans for both of us
But when you are not here, I cried at your absence
swallowing my sorrows, bitting my nails
longing for your nearness

Sitting in the shore, staring at the waves
waiting to hear your words, its killing me
I just wish to be sleeping in your lap
closing my eyes, fills my heart to the brim
loving you till my last breath

mengapakah aku kesunyian, mengapakah aku kerinduan. engkau ada di sisi tapi bagaikan mimpi. sentuh tak terasa, lihat tak tersapa. satu azab. satu nikmat. satu kesempurnaan yang janggal di mata.

Aku sayang...aku cinta...aku kaseh...aku rindu...aku sayang akan dirimu

Rajuk ku tidak panjang...sekejap cuma...

Soalan yang bertalu-talu menerjah fikiran ku....membuat aku jadi pemikir, namun buntu untuk menemukan jawapan yang pasti. Apa sebenar mahumu...apa pula sebenarnya yang aku inginkan....

Hari nie dirinya ceria...ketawa riang....aku pun turut merasa tenang setenang air di kali.

Tak sedikit air mataku tumpah hari ini. Sayu dan pilu mendengar keluhan hatinya. Aku tak berdaya untuk berbuat apa-apa....hanya turut beremosi, menangis hiba. Kalau....ya perkataan KALAU amat mudah di sebut. Berpunca dari perkataan itu.
Kalau dapat menatap wajah ku.... kalau dapat mengenggam tangan ku.... kalau dapat menyentuh pipi ku.... kalau dapat membelai rambut ku.... menyeka air mata ku.... kalau semuanya kalau.... KALAU
Maafkan daku sayang.... maafkan aku tak terniat untuk melukakan hati mu.... aku hanya sekadar berimaginasi

Malam ini hujan lebat sekali....dingin yang teramat....sedingin salju....sunyi yg terlampau, aku hanya mendengar hela nafasku....ku pejam mata....hanya dia....hanya wajahnya bermain di mata....apa khabar dia di sana....
Setiap hari aku hanya mampu mendengar suaranya....kekadang ceria....kekadang gundah gulana.... kekadang bunyinya teruja ada masa sebak berkumpul di dada. Hanya ucapan kasih cinta dan sayang sahaja yang mampu memujuk hati dam mententeramkan jiwa....kekadang aku rasa lemah tak berdaya....menanggung derita di jiwa dan aku tahu dia juga begitu....sabar sayang ku....sabarla menanti.....
selamat malam....mimpi yang indah indah....mimpikan diriku yang jauh di mata